Waiting

Waiting: that time where a person is caught in limbo, desiring something future, hoping for it's arrival, yet unable to presently obtain that which is desired.

Waiting tends to require patience, not a staple quality of the modern human. In an immediately focused society, patience often finds itself being tossed off as an unacceptable option. So as hard as this can be for me, I find myself forcibly accepting this unacceptable option.

Why?

Because of hope! All motivation seems to be driven by some measure of hope. Even inside of this banner title of hope, there may be two entirely different kinds of hope: the effect of hope, and the act of hope.

The effect of hope is a reason to believe a certain result will come to pass. for example, when stranded on a desert island you have hope of survival when you see a ship nearby or you catch a fish for food.

The act of hope is when you choose to pursue something that you wish would come to pass. Again on the island one would say "I hope someone sees this smoke signal".

As I find myself in a state of waiting I hope for an end that if I am honest with myself does not produce "the effect of hope". Still I act hopefully towards it, I pursue that end in as much as I can. I don't do this as someone who cannot deal with their present reality and must escape to a fantasy world they create to comfort themselves, but I do it as one who is so captured by the value of that which I hope for that he cannot but strive for it with all his might until he either has it or it is completely out of his reach. Still I can confidently say "it" is worth the wait.