My room, or my mirror?

I pulled up the blinds today, I opened the window. Yes, you read that right, I am writing this post to tell you that I pulled up the blinds in my dormitory room today, that I opened up the window.
It seems like forever I've been making unhealthy choices in my life. Every time I turned around this last week it was to the wake of another failure in discipline, another unwise decision. Slowly, but surely, that knotty feeling in my stomach began to gain its control on me until I was so weak that I had not the energy to fight it anymore. I began missing classes, staying up way to late, and just drowning in my own self worry, or pity, I'm not sure which one it was. Either way it was like trying to get myself out of the muck: the more I fought the weaker I became and the deeper I would sink until finally I was completely submerged! That submersion was this afternoon where my laziness and sin hit its peak!
As I laid there on my couch, feeling as though I was completely defeated, I put on a John Piper sermon and it was as if God opened my eyes to where I was. I saw myself, I was sitting on a couch in a dark room with stale air. Funny how parallel the conditions of my dorm room were to my actual spiritual state. I kept my dorm room shades down, window closed, blocking out sunlight and cool fresh air. So also I, a hopeless sinner who has been freed from his slavery to sin has been subjecting myself to that same dark sin. I have been given glorious light Hallelujah!!! But in my laziness, and my lustfulness, and my selfishness, I have been pulling down the blinds on my heart, I have been closing the refreshing windows to my soul! How terrible and unimaginable that I would do such a thing!
I've seen it's affect on my life already, I have been pushing friends away so that I can be alone in my darkness. I have been hurting my relationship with my girlfriend with my desire for the unhealthy rather than the healthy. I even got a speeding ticket the other night for my disregard of the law. I am struggling to do homework, I miss classes too. Most of all I have disregarded my prayer life and my time spent studying the sweet Word of God!
God showed me that today! Thank you Jesus for showing me that today! Both I, and my dorm room, were wonderfully saved from our subjection to darkness and stagnity today! I know this doesn't mean I won't struggle anymore, but God has affected my heart with His Gospel today, He grabbed me in that muck and pulled me out while I was drowning! I know I will still struggle, but today my conscience was reawakened and it bears strongly on my heart! My heart began to beat as the light and the wind of the gospel ravished it! And now I echo with David, "May the words of my mouth and the meditations of my heart be pleasing in your sight, my rock and my redeemer!" (Ps. 19:14)